GOD, PLEASE PLEASE FORGIVE ME

God Dearest,
You know the reason why I'm asking you to forgive me. Yes, God, for the same reason, for uttering negative words today..I've been feeling extremely bad , extremely worse since the moment I uttered those words..You know that, Why am I always like this, the good mind keeps telling that I should not be telling that, but in the spur of the moment, the devil mind pushes the right mind backwards and my mounth simply obeys whatever mind has the power at any point in time. GOD< Please forgive me..I've been chanting prayers and aksing YOU sorry umpteen times, but still, you seem to be pissed off.. Is that the reason you gave a news that we have theetu for the next 10 days (viruthhi theetu) becasue DH's cousin is now a proud father for the second time? Arent we supposed to clebrate and be happy and thank the LORD for such a great blesing? Instead, we close your door, we are instructed not to do any God related activities..etc.. Why GOD? We have kept Golu in our house and I just got ready to go to the temple to worship you and seek your blessings(I know your blessinsg are there all the time, without which I wou;dnt exist at all..) and to apologise for the mistake taht I've done. GOD, PLEASE PLEASE FORGIVE ME... You knwo my prayers and you know what is good for me..ALways in your mercies..
SORRY again, please forgive me..